July 21, 1947

In the morning after I had warned them the night before about the claiming that one of the boys made about seeing a beast, everyone is more terrified than ever. So I suggest to go and look for the best, I thought it was the most reasonable. But they were too scared… Poor Ralph got a little depressed, but Piggy tried to cheer him up with the idea of building a new signal fire. However, many of the kids go to Jack's group at night….

Late at night, I slip away from the camp and return to the place where I had gone the last time. I felt like I wanted to feel that peace again. But when I got there, I found the sow's head impaled on the stake in the middle of the clearing. So I sat by the clearing starring at this thing with complete amazement, which was now covered by flies. And then, something really weird happened… I couldn't believe it. It seemed as if this head on the stick had come to life and started talking to me! He started telling all this stuff about me not being able to scape from him because I lied for all human beings or something…. My world started spinning and I felt weak. Could it had been just my imagination? I was really confused….

The next thing I know was that I was awaking from a faint, with a bloody nose. Scared to my bones I walk unsteadily toward the mountain as fast as I could. But crawl up the hill I see a dead pilot with its flapping parachute moving with wind! I couldn't believe it! The kids might have confused this with the beast! I need to go and tell them! I heard the distance sound of the feast, and so I stumbled toward it. Hopefully they see me!

July 20, 1946

The sweltering sun couldn't be hotter… Being under such heat all the day took a lot of energy. Most of the kids including me had ragged remainings of what used to be the uniform. Our hairs were close to covering our eyes, but that didn't stop us… And it didn't stop Jack either… He and a group of boys started painting their faces for hunting, they kind of freaked me out so I tried to stay as far from them as I could.

Fear

July 10, 1946

The fear of the beastie arose throughout the days… Hope of being rescued was being doubt due to the lack of unity of the group, and this made the littluns insecure. I tried my best to give them my support, and help Ralph keep calm; but Jack put up an obstacle trying to intimidate the poor young ones. Hunting was being put up before than the fire by Jack, and he ignored Ralph's attempt to be rescued, and we suffered the consequences: a boat that could've seen us didn't because we didn't keep up the fire. I know they wouldn't listen to me… So I went and help collect fruits for the littluns, at least trying to help them in some way…

Reaching a Connection

June 29, 1946

Under the bright noon sun, I helped Ralph at work building the huts for the younger boys to live in, while the others splashed and play in the lagoon. These weren't that successful, they kept falling down, and this made Ralph kind of irritated, I tried my best to help him but it was too difficult only the two of us, I didn't want him to get mad, but the truth was that we needed more help from the others. So he went to them and points out that everyone is exited in the meetings but they don't do what they said they would do, and that Jack's hunters used their job as an excuse to not do anything. I saw Jack approaching, I knew that a discussion was coming, so I decided to go explore; I didn't want to be part of a discussion.

So I walked through the scar, walking to where the wind took me… I ended up in a place covered by bushes where the wind kept hitting me. I heard the peaceful whistles, and relaxed for the first time on this island. I felt that I could understand the language of the jungle…

Fire on the Mountain

June 26, 1946

The conch was blown and a meeting was called. Ralph was trying to organize a group that could be incharge of hunting… Meanwhile, the older boys noticed a group of little ones urging a shrimp of a boy with a visible birthmark on his face to talk . He looked terrified and nervous, and after he gained the courage he said that he had seen a beastie (a "snake thing") and that he had seen it in the dark. Ralph denied the idea, and said that a bestie that big couldn't be here in such a small place, I think he was trying to calm this little boy. But then Jack said that maybe there wasn't a bestie, but if there was one, they would hunt it and kill it. I just sat there hearing the different points of views denying the idea of a beast, but having a fear, a worry that maybe just maybe it might be true; however, coming from a little kid I couldn't believe anything…. Soon enough, Ralph changed the subject to the fire. Everyone got exited from the idea, it was fun and useful so that we could be rescued.

Ralph, Jack, Piggy, Sam and Eric help collecting wood from the fire, and leaves to make smoke. Once they set the fire successfully with Piggy's glasses focusing the sunlight on the wood, they get a large fire going, but it quickly died down. Dinsension occurred between Piggy, Ralph, and the boys because Piggy said that they had to be more efficient, and so Jack said that his hunters would be resposinble for keeping the signal fire going. While everyone discussed, Piggy pointed out that one of the littlest boys --the one that had told about the beastie earlier-- was playing over by the fire, and now he was missing…. I was in total shame, I could've had saved him! I wish I could have pretended that nothing had happened like the others did, but that was just not me….